Sunrise and My Love



I don't know how can I hate this face.



 

One year has passed.


I said in my last post about writing a part two of my last post but

ONE YEAR HAS PASSED since then.








Procrastination you rule my life.

After 30 years...

Actually not 30 years. Sebenarnya aku malas nak kira. Tapi takpe, aku kira sekarang

5-6 years?

Maybe. Maybe it has been 5-6 years since I last went to this place. I felt so like a school kid again because I usually went there right after school, in my school uniform, selekeh and all, with the biasiswa money I took from BSN nearby.

I so missed my old self. I miss how I used to be.

And I miss my friends.

I went inside Soon Seng Plaza because I needed to go to the toilet. I was so overwhelmed by the samenessessity, a word which here means the fact that nothing much has changed or nothing at all changed since the last time you went to a place or saw something including its smell and the way it makes you feel inside. You can tell I made that word up.

I felt like 15 again. Well I actually felt like 14, 15, 16 and 17 again at the same time.

the same bench

the same sports shop with the same-looking basketballs that I used to admire and wished to buy like crazy because I love basketball like crazy that I drank a litre of milk almost everyday and jumped rope 1000 times almost everyday in the hopes of becoming taller because I wanted to become an All-Star NBA player and I watched NBA All Stars every Saturday & Sunday morning and would get emotional if I missed it and I love Houston Rockets so much that I cried and dubbed my eraser Tyronn Lue. That is when I was 16. Or 14 I can't remember.

and this same store with the same goods

I wonder how long have they been sitting there

the same this

the same SOJO

selling the same SOJO things

the same Guardian with the same McDonald's smell from the McDonald's next to it

the same toilet with the same sound of water gushing from the broken pipe in the same stall

Over the years, I have grown fond of this bridge. Maybe I should call it "My Favourite Bridge (MFB)"

Now let us tread lightly on the stairs to go to the other side.

it's so clean and beggar-free

It's gonna be too long so I'll continue in my next post like anybody cares.

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Thank you

All my life, I've received a lot of help from the people around me, especially my friends. And most of the time, I had failed to remember their kind gestures or even who they are. It's not because I didn't appreciate what they do, rather I forgot to show my appreciation, if appreciation to them means to constantly call or text or go hang out together at the mall. It's not because I didn't care but rather, I forgot to care

because my family's like this and my parents are like this and we are living like this

and I'm coping with everything and my head hurts a lot and my heart hurts a lot.

Maybe they (my friends) resent me for being so detached but they must know, not everyone is living a perfect life like they do. What you see on the surface doesn't always reflect what's on the inside. You may hate me for always going up to you to ask for more help but you must know I hate it that I have to live like this.

And to have someone to lean on to once in a while after being pressed down hard for several weeks and months is such a relief that I can't put into words.

My "thank you" may sound like just another "thank you" you get from a cashier in the supermarket but believe me, if I can illustrate it, it would be as vast as the sky.

I don't care if you hate me because I am always thankful to have a friend like you. 

And I may forget but God doesn't.

Sedih

I am babysitting Suri right now. I see her pretty much everyday so it's not a problem babysitting this one but she keeps calling me like every 2 seconds to say words that she just heard/learned from tv/videos and to show me some actions that she just learned how to do and to ask me to watch the tv and bla bla bla.

"Akak, akak.."

She's 2 years old. Baru belajar cakap, that's why.

Semalam was the day I moaned under my breath, in front of the tv when I learned that DeHanMinGook gave their princess' robes and knights' hats and royal cushion and many more of their historical traditional royal garments to America. They said something like "Even we don't have the likes in our own country". I moaned so hard. And when the whole show ended, I was still moaning.. while thinking whether or not should I eat instant noodles for lunch. And when Star Date started, I cried even more when I saw so many people gathered just to see this one actor at a station in S.K... because I was so overwhelmed. I don't know why did they have to give everything to migook saram I just don't understand that I was and still am very much disappointed and frustrated why why why why why did you give them your hanbok for them to keep in their museum and wear their clothes whyyyyyy

Now you must be wondering what have you just read

It's 12.22pm and I'm sleepy.

Suri.

My Beauty Appreciation Post.

우리 특별한, 사랑한 Wolf!

I really think he looks like Gaara in Naruto with that red hair.
I really think he's beautiful.
Forgive me for posting this.