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Aisyah had made a new Tumblelog, apparently her third tumblr account so far. She admitted finally that being impulsive sometimes isn't good after all.

The same old url.

Quotes.

Two of the hardest tests in life: The patience to wait for the right moment and the courage to accept that you’ve waited for nothing.

Adam was the first man, and the first prophet. He was chosen by God. In Arabic, the name Adam is made from the letters alif, dal and mim, which represent man standing, bowing and prostrating. When man prostrates to his God it is the only time that his heart is above his head. Within the name of the first man, God has left a secret of how to live.

Fairy tales are more than true: not because they tell us that dragons exist, but because they tell us that dragons can be beaten.

- G.K. Chesterton.

I want to see, real, and in the hours of my own living days, that glory I create as an illusion. I want it real. I want to know that there is someone, somewhere, who wants it, too. Or else what is the use of seeing it, and working and burning oneself for an impossible vision? A spirit too, needs fuel. It can run dry.

- Ayn Rand.

It’s not dying that you need to be afraid of, it’s never having lived in the first place.

-Britt Reid.

Our forefarthers died for the pursuit of happiness! Not the “sit-around-and-wait” of happiness!

Also, if you win, you want to be able to strike a heroic pose without worrying if you have broccoli in your teeth, or you want to make the prettiest corpse possible if things go badly. 

– How To Slay A Dragon – A Knight’s Perspective.

We’re not droplets in the ocean. We’re the ocean.

- MUSE

You don’t know what goes in anyone’s life but your own. And when you mess with one part of a person’s life, you’re not messing with just that part. Unfortunately you can’t be that precise and selective. When you mess with one part of a person’s life, you’re messing with their entire life.

–Jay Asher.

Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.

-Plato.

To be nobody but yourself in a world that’s doing its best to make you somebody else, is to fight the hardesT battle you are ever going to fight. Never stop fighting.

- E.E. Cummings.

I do not know how I may appear to the world, but to myself, I seem to have been only a boy playing on the sea-shore, and diverting myself in now and then finding a smoother pebble or a prettier shell than ordinary, whilst the great ocean of truth lay all undiscovered before me.
– Sir Isaac Newton.

To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.

– Oscar Wilde

Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable.

– C.S Lewis.

Heartbreak is an odd kind of pain because you are not dying.  You are not even sick. You’re perfectly fine, yet you hurt so much that you can’t even breathe. You can’t sleep and you can’t stop tears from falling. You may eat too much. You may not eat at all. Non-smokers light up. Non-drinkers find a bar. A broken heart is one the world’s greatest equalizer because it can turn even the sweetest angel into a freaking devil.

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from safe harbour. Catch the trade winds in your sail. Explore. Dream. Discover.

– Mark Twain.

I feel like changing the url.

God Bless My Mum.

Tiba-tiba rasa sebak sebab nak jalan jauh. Mungkin sebab lama tak jalan jauh. Pastu rasa sebak lagi tadi marah Nurin sebab dia degil. Sekarang rasa macam nak pegi peluk dia pulak. Tadi tengok dalam beg yang bawa pergi balik kampung kemarin ada Nani punya compact powder menyebabkan rasa sedih sebab terbayangkan Nani kat sekolah tak dapat nak melawa semua pasal kakak dia. Rasa sebak lagi sebab mama dah turunkan plastik hitam kat atas almari tu sebab aku takut labah-labah yang mana dengan itu dah jumpa semua sijil-sijil zaman sekolah dulu, beserta semua buku-buku physics, chemistry and all yang aku ingat mama dah jual sebab mama sendiri cakap dia dah jual tapi sebenarnya ada kat atas almari so apa benda yang mama jual hari tu? -_______-"

Haih. Bila dah sebak-sebak tak pasal macam ni, mestilah rasa nak cakap "I Love You EVERYONE and I'm sorry" sebab hakikatnya memang selalu sayang semua orang cuma kadang-kadang tak perasan.

Sedihnya :(((

Not Now.

Well I guess life is in fact a matter of choice. You choose whether to be good or bad. You choose whether to be nice or mean. You choose to be a writer or an engineer. You choose to eat or to starve. You choose to pray Asar first before goin out to play football or the other way round. But you can’t choose to be a girl or a boy or in what month you would want to be born and die and some  other stuff though.

“Tuhan dah takdirkan aku jadi jahat, habis aku nak buat macam mana?” - ya heard that line before? I have. It kinda made me wanted to pull the hair of that person who said it.

And what about fate? Personally, I believe that some are meant to be and some can be changed. The ones that are meant to be are of course the one that you can’t choose like the stuff said above. And fate can be changed - yep, you guessed it; by the means of prayers. If you reallyreallyreallyreally want something just ask God for it, and be patient. Keep asking because God loves to hear your voice. But always remember, God knows best. He might grant all that you ask, at once or little by little within a period of time. He might grant some, just a number of things from all that you pray for. Or He might not grant anything at all, because He has something better for you.

Just be patient and don’t lose it. It works. Been there, done that.

So there’s really no use in being all bitter and angry with anything or anyone. Like what I wrote in the previous post, about the people who messed with your life and all, it’s not like they knew they were actually messing with your life, did they? It’s not like they knew that they came at a critical time of your life. Be kind. Maybe they too have been having a tough time, you never know. I know it’s hard to be kind. I’m struggling. Why did God allow them to come into your life, nobody would ever really know why. Entah la my life still doesn’t make sense.

I think fate works with choice but I dunno how to explain it from my point of view. I tried but it sounded funny.

All in all, benda-benda macam ni perlu ilmu which I seriously lack. Stuff that I write isn’t meant to try to teach anyone. And why did I write it here is because it’s my blog and I can write whatever the hell I want to. Hehe. I didn’t read anything prior and like I said, I’m no scholar. I don’t picture myself writing for any fancy website or magazine and whatnot, imagining that people would read and live their lives by it. I’m not trying to teach anybody here, these are just some of my sentiments. Don’t get too emotional. Ra ra crap.

God has a master plan 

And I guess, I am in His demand

- Blink-182, Not Now.

Headache.

Predestination noun the theory or the belief that everything that happens has been decided or planned in advance by God or by fate and that humans cannot change it.

Predestined adj. ~ (to do sth) (formal) already decided or planned by God or by fate.

Fate. Like when I opened the dictionary in order to find the meaning of “Premonition” but stumbled upon those two words that had my brows furrowed. And my fingers typing. Fate. You know what fate is.

But if you’re too lazy to improve; born poor die poor, born stupid die stupid, is that fate?

I mean, if we take it like, “Ah, God has decided that I’m gonna be weak at trigonometry so.. you know.. “

You know...

What I understand about life is, it’s gonna be kind to you if you just, like what they say, go with the flow. But wait until you think, “Hey, I want to change this. I wanna do it my way. Gotta set off to create my own destiny,” that is when it’s gonna be hard on you.

And that is when you’re gonna go all “LIFE IS UNFAIR!” and maybe followed by no less than a dozen of complementary cuss words because cuss words are the basis of an angry speech. So that people know that you are angry. Penambah perisa, pelengkap sajian.

Like, you started off with a very good intention, but you ended up in this shithole. Shithole - that’s the word I prefer. Because you didn’t plan to fall and get hurt but you fell and got hurt. The thing about unplanned things are they just happen if they want to happen and there’s nothing you can do about it. They drive you crazy.

I guess that’s fate. Nasty fate.

Compare this life to the journey or the adventure of a canyoneer. He climbs and jumps across mountains and canyons all his life triumphantly without failing, like a big fuckin hard hero, always doing things on his own. Little did he know that one day he’s gonna fall into a deep crack in the Earth’s surface with the most notorious boulder trapping his arm which made him stuck in that canyon for five days with insufficient food and water supply. Nobody was there to help him. He was all alone.

Life is pretty much unpredictable. It makes you insane.

Yea, it’s the movie 127 Hours and I’ve been thinking about the whole point since the first time I saw it, back in March when I didn’t really know James Franco. But when I found out all about the stuff he did and how gorgeous he really is, I watched the movie another two times. The last time was just now. My mum got really nervous when Aron cut his arm.

 OK.

Then there’s another thing that goes along with fate; Choice. Every day we make choices from what time you wanna wake up to what time you wanna hit the sack back. And all your choices will bring about the appropriate effect on you, also on the people around you. For instance if you choose to not take a shower, then you’re gonna smell and the people about you might even pretend that they don’t know you, even if they’re your family. So we choose. We choose this instead of that and a series of events follow as a result. Is that considered fate? I mean, had we chosen a different path, would that means we changed our fate?

No. Because everything is predestined. If Allah wants it to happen then all the king's horses and all the king's men, including all the jinn and any creature at all can't stop it from happening. 

All these choices that you make in life, all the "The Road Not Taken” thingy, is there such thing as a wrong choice? How can you make a wrong choice if you’re destined for it? And the people who came into your life, who seemed to only have messed with only that one part of your life when in truth they actually have messed with your entire life, why did God allow them to come into your life when life was all fine back in those days when you didn’t even know them at all?

It makes the least sense in the world.

Hidup akan tekan kau sampai kau melutut, terduduk. Life’s gonna push you down on your knee and make you scream for it to stop and leave you alone. You’re gonna start to think then why must all that happen to you because you’re a good person but the answer is not just gonna appear out of thin air. Some people have to deal with that thing that weighs down on them for years. Some survived. Some ended up in the asylum, some ended up dead – because they gave up. And the most torturing is the thing that you can’t actually tell anybody about because it’s impossible that they’d understand. And that’s why the belief in God is so important for us humans.

Patience. You don’t get mad when your sister keeps drinking that water you kept chilled in the refrigerator without asking your permission beforehand – you’re patient. You don’t get angry when you have to wash your mattress every time your cat pee on it – you’re very patient. Wait until you have to deal with something else that’s gonna strain every muscle in your brain. Wait until those stupid thoughts starts screaming in your head, depriving you from sleep. Wait until you feel like banging your head with a brick. It gets very tricky.

Patience. It’s something hard. But if you want to get out of this mess alive, patience isn’t an option. It’s the only choice you have. Like when Aron had to cut this one urat in his arm, the most excruciating part of the story but he cut it anyway because if he was too scared to deal with the pain of cutting it and stop, he would’ve died. Sebab tangan dia dah terbarai.

Even writing this makes me depressed.

Nobody plans to fall, nobody plans to be broken and nobody plans to get hurt. My intentions were good, I know they were.

The thing about life is, you have to always talk to God and ask Him why does he put you in such circumstances. But you can’t see God, you can’t hear Him and that is the beauty of it. You read it right - that’s the beauty of it. You may think God doesn’t care about you and that you’re gonna lose your mind, you’re jaded, you just want to blow your head up, kill yourself and die, leave it all, leave this mean little world but you decided not to – that’s the beauty of it.

I don’t know why did He put me in the situation that I had never ever imagined I would fall into and He alone knows my greatest weakness. But I know He didn’t do it “for fun”.

Sabar. Pahala sabar paling besar.

I mean, everybody is going to have to “amputate their arm” at one point in their lives. And that is when you know that your life will never be the same again. Just don’t give up. Cuz the last thing you want to do is to give up. And don’t be angry. You say you’re tired but God knows you’re not yet that tired.

In the end, you would want to stand on the highest peak and be able to say,

“I’m all weary and beaten-up, but I’m still standing,”

And strike that pose, you strike that pose, even if with minus an arm.

I’m gonna strike that pose. We are all gonna strike that pose. Insha Allah. God is Ar-Rahman, Ar-Rahim. You betcha.

Hormon.

I lose temper so easily lately. Being cliche, I blame it on the hormones even though I was the one who had full control of myself. Perkara kecil kadang-kadang nampak besar, semuanya salah PMS. Oleh itu, tercetuslah tulisan-tulisan kasar dan muka pun jadi garang. Sebenarnya takda apa pun, cuma rasa macam kena tulis dalam sini dengan harapan ada orang akan baca sebab orang selalunya akan terasa walaupun kita bukannya cakap atau tulis pasal mereka. So, itu bukan pasal sesiapa pun sebenarnya, those tulisan-tulisan kasar. Again, jangan salah faham, nanti bergaduh. Bukan pasal sesiapa dan sesiapa pun tak patut terasa. Semua orang baik.

Err, Aisyah kurang sikit :P

A-la-hai.

Rasa macam menyesal la pulak pegi delete tumblr ishk. Tapi alahai... takde tapi tapi , memang menyesal pun. Alahaaaaii....

Nak start yang baru, no man, am toooo lazy. Tapi tapi.. Alahaaaaaaiii....

Alahai alahai

Apeeee pun tak boleh!

(Terasa cool sebab quote Jambu kat atas nu)



Kiri duri, kanan pun berduri.
haha.
Chudnofsky.

Flash that winning smile!

I just love him too much already. Terlajak perahu boleh undur, terlajak suka dah nak buat macam mana kan? kan? Haaaaaaaa.

There are a lot of sayings about how a smile can change a life or how a smile brightens your day and stuff. Well, it has never been truer with the one of Franco's. He has the most gorgeous smile and I can't help but to smile every time I come across one of his smiling photos.

I literally thank God for him. 

It's a beautiful life, ain't it? :)

I'mma blog til I rot.

Tolongla jgn stop tulis blog. Klaka nau.

- Ayuni Zi.

Thanks Yuni. Aku baru je rasa cam nak letupkan blog ni semalam. And um, aku takde kredit nak reply.. teehee.