Not Now.

Well I guess life is in fact a matter of choice. You choose whether to be good or bad. You choose whether to be nice or mean. You choose to be a writer or an engineer. You choose to eat or to starve. You choose to pray Asar first before goin out to play football or the other way round. But you can’t choose to be a girl or a boy or in what month you would want to be born and die and some  other stuff though.

“Tuhan dah takdirkan aku jadi jahat, habis aku nak buat macam mana?” - ya heard that line before? I have. It kinda made me wanted to pull the hair of that person who said it.

And what about fate? Personally, I believe that some are meant to be and some can be changed. The ones that are meant to be are of course the one that you can’t choose like the stuff said above. And fate can be changed - yep, you guessed it; by the means of prayers. If you reallyreallyreallyreally want something just ask God for it, and be patient. Keep asking because God loves to hear your voice. But always remember, God knows best. He might grant all that you ask, at once or little by little within a period of time. He might grant some, just a number of things from all that you pray for. Or He might not grant anything at all, because He has something better for you.

Just be patient and don’t lose it. It works. Been there, done that.

So there’s really no use in being all bitter and angry with anything or anyone. Like what I wrote in the previous post, about the people who messed with your life and all, it’s not like they knew they were actually messing with your life, did they? It’s not like they knew that they came at a critical time of your life. Be kind. Maybe they too have been having a tough time, you never know. I know it’s hard to be kind. I’m struggling. Why did God allow them to come into your life, nobody would ever really know why. Entah la my life still doesn’t make sense.

I think fate works with choice but I dunno how to explain it from my point of view. I tried but it sounded funny.

All in all, benda-benda macam ni perlu ilmu which I seriously lack. Stuff that I write isn’t meant to try to teach anyone. And why did I write it here is because it’s my blog and I can write whatever the hell I want to. Hehe. I didn’t read anything prior and like I said, I’m no scholar. I don’t picture myself writing for any fancy website or magazine and whatnot, imagining that people would read and live their lives by it. I’m not trying to teach anybody here, these are just some of my sentiments. Don’t get too emotional. Ra ra crap.

God has a master plan 

And I guess, I am in His demand

- Blink-182, Not Now.